Humiliation #1

It’s just humiliation, that’s what you feel. You are new here, the questions, the looks they give, and it’s just humiliating. Whatever they feel I don’t give a damn but the humiliation still remains. It’s like questioning one’s identity; it’s like doubting one’s intentions. It’s all bullshit.

But the time comes when you feel that all this is just an outline. Just an outline of the real story to be told. The reality. Whatever.

But the thought still remains. The regrets. The pain. The embarrassment. The disgrace.

What is that really happening? Is it true that everything is been controlled by the one above?

Then what’s our role? Or do we have one. There are a lot of contradictions if that discussion is put into the front. Better not to.

Still I guess that we are just playing our parts, full control in our own hands, the result depends on how you do it.